In a Relationship Times Two

It turns out that my boyfriend has a girlfriend of three years. Ask him who I am to him? He'd answer, 'his girlfriend'. Ask him the same question about Ella, and he'd answer the same. What am I still doing in this status? I don't know. I guess I'm not crazy anymore. I'm just stupid.

I'm tired. I don't want to move. I just want to leave things as they are and watch where life takes me. Just for now. I don't want to move. I want to stay where I was left behind.

So there goes my status. Name it however you want, just don't let me hear it. I'm in denial. Or whatever. I'm hoping... But who really knows?

I'm hurting.

I'm lost...